So I'm a Dreamy Idealist, Hm?

Dreamy Idealist (DI)
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Dreamy Idealists are very cautious and therefore often appear shy and reserved to others. They share their rich emotional life and their passionate convictions with very few people. But one would be very much mistaken to judge them to be cool and reserved. They have a pronounced inner system of values and clear, honourable principles for which they are willing to sacrifice a great deal. Joan of Arc or Sir Galahad would have been good examples of this personality type. Dreamy Idealists are always at great pains to improve the world. They can be very considerate towards others and do a lot to support them and stand up for them. They are interested in their fellow beings, attentive and generous towards them. Once their enthusiasm for an issue or person is aroused, they can become tireless fighters.

For Dreamy Idealists, practical things are not really so important. They only busy themselves with mundane everyday demands when absolutely necessary. They tend to live according to the motto “the genius controls the chaos” - which is normally the case so that they often have a very successful academic career. They are less interested in details; they prefer to look at something as a whole. This means that they still have a good overview even when things start to become hectic. However, as a result, it can occasionally happen that Dreamy Idealists overlook something important. As they are very peace-loving, they tend not to openly show their dissatisfaction or annoyance but to bottle it up. Assertiveness is not one of their strong points; they hate conflicts and competition. Dreamy Idealists prefer to motivate others with their amicable and enthusiastic nature. Whoever has them as superior will never have to complain about not being given enough praise.

As at work, Dreamy Idealists are helpful and loyal friends and partners, persons of integrity. Obligations are absolutely sacred to them. The feelings of others are important to them and they love making other people happy. They are satisfied with just a small circle of friends; their need for social contact is not very marked as they also need a lot of time to themselves. Superfluous small talk is not their thing. If one wishes to be friends with them or have a relationship with them, one would have to share their world of thought and be willing to participate in profound discussions. If you manage that you will be rewarded with an exceptionally intensive, rich partnership. Due to their high demands on themselves and others, this personality type tends however to sometimes overload the relationship with romantic and idealistic ideas to such an extent that the partner feels overtaxed or inferior. Dreamy Idealists do not fall in love head over heels but when they do fall in love they want this to be a great, eternal love.

Adjectives which describe your type
introverted, theoretical, emotional, spontaneous, idealistic, dreamy, effusive, pleasant, reserved, friendly, passionate, loyal, perfectionist, helpful, creative, composed, curious, obstinate, with integrity, willing to make sacrifices, romantic, cautious, shy, peace-loving, vulnerable, sensitive, communicative, imaginative

These subjects could interest you
literature, philosophy, psychology, music, art (museums), writing, drawing/painting, astrology, spiritual things, meditation, handicrafts, writing, voluntary work



I guess I have to admit that it sounds about right...^^'...

I've Never Read Something More True to Myself...

"In idle moments, I still slide my fingers under the sleeves of my shirt and trace the raised white nubs of scars that track my arms from years and years of cutting. How did I learn to stop cutting and collapsing, and can I somehow transmit this ability to others?"

When I first found and read that anonymous quote yesterday, I almost started to cry. I have never read something that is more true to myself and what I aim to do in the future. There are many times when I'm bored or nervous that I find myself running my fingers over the raised scars that decorate the flesh of my left forearm from five years of self-injury. I thank the gods everyday that I'm able to go without hurting myself, and can't help but wonder what I can do to help others who suffer with the same problem. How can I get my voice out there? How can I reach out and wrap my arms around those people who are hurting? How can I let them know that they are not alone?...

I've already started my journey in the smallest way possible. My writing is my voice. Through two seperate fan fictions I have been able to spread the word about self-injury, to teach those who had never heard of it or thought that it was something only "crazy people did" that it is a real problem. Through my writing I have been able to teach acceptance and tolerance. One day I hope that I'll be able to teach those things to a wider range of an audience...

I idolize the creators of To Write Love on Her Arms, a non-profit organization that is focus on suicide, self-injury, and abuse awareness. I admire them for their perseverance for for being able to get out there and do something that I can only dream of doing. One day, I hope to maybe join forces with them. If they're still accepting applications when summer comes around, I'm thinking of applying to intern with them. That would be such an amazing experience and I would love to be surrounded by such magnificent people...

To me, it doesn't matter that the organization is based in the Christian faith. They are so open and willing to accept everyone. I'm sure that they would be willing to accept a Pagan into their diverse mix as well...

It still astounds me that, according to TWLOHA's website, an estimated 4% of the world's population has self-injured at some point in their life. This number was only 1% two years ago. 3% in two years? Really? That's amazing and only makes my drive even stronger. One day, I will be able to help people who suffer like I have and sometimes still do. I refuse to let anything get in my way of doing that...

Love,
Nichole

Book Cover Concept

I made my first cover for Pulse today, guys!!! :dances: It was really fun. I know that it's not the prettiest thing in the world, but you have to remember that I'm just an amateur at all this stuff...^^'...Even so, I really like it. It gives me a bit of hope, even though I made it myself...Heheh...

You can see it here: Conceptual Cover for Pulse

Tell me what you all think. Pleeease??

Loves!
Kolie

New Found Obsession

I am in freakin' love with photo manipulations!!!!!! :dies: I've always wanted to do them, but thought they would be too difficult. Well damn...was I wrong. LoL. My favorite right now is eye manipulations. I'm doing a series of eye manips that are inspired by fruits. It all started with me playing around with one photo and realizing it was kind of watermelon-ish when I was done. It wasn't on purpose or anything. And now it's spawned this great huge thing, and it's so much fun!!! Heheh. So far I've ten manips for the Fruit series. They are: Watermelon, Citrus Zest, Apple Rind, Kiwi, Strawberry Banana, Raspberry, Seedless Grape, Blueberry Gum, Cherry Blossom, and Pineapple Dreams. All of these but Watermelon were done today. They're so easy and fast!! I would do more tonight, but I've kind of run out of ideas for fruits for the day and I need to write up a speech that I have to give tomorrow...

Anyway...if you want to check out some of my eye manipulations, visit my deviantart account at http://xcrimson-tearsx.deviantart.com. All of the eye manipulations are there, and more!!!...

Loves!!
Nichole

Ima Cowboy

Heheh. I love this picture and just had to share. My Bichon Frise, Peanut, looking like he's smiling at my brother (who had just walked into the room). Gosh darnit, he's so damned cute!!...^^'...

Loves!

Work

This is just an update on things, so yeah^^'...

I finished, edited and posted "Clumsy" sometime last week. Isn't it sad that I can't remember when? Yeah...I thought so too. Anyway, it's a Kingdom Hearts, Akuroku fic inspired by the song of the same title by Fergie. Not many reviews or stuff yet, but I'm not surprised. I mean, I did kinda vanish there for about six months or so...:sighs:...

Work has started once again on the next chapter for "Understanding." Yayay!! Heheh. Yeah, it's been quite a while since I've really sat down to work on that certain fic. It's nice that my muses have returned. Let's all just hope and pray that they don't decided to take another extended vacation anytime soon...That would really suck...

I've started another one-shot inspired by "Soushin no Koe" by MUCC. Ohmigawd! This song is freakin' amazing! LoL. So dark and sexy and Tatsuro's voice just makes me want to melt into a happy little pile of goo...^^'...Yeah...it's that good. Anyway...I haven't decided what the pairing is going to be yet, or even if it's going to be turned into a fan fiction. Right now it's lingering in an original state and I'm kinda liking it that way. Who knows, though? Maybe I'll get the itch to turn it into a fic someday. I dunno...

I've started working on "Yours to Hold" once again as well. It's a fic from the Uglies series by Scott Westerfeld...:obsesses:...with a Hiro/Ren pairing. It's also inspired by the song of the same title by Skillet, though I may end up changing the title when I get it done. I haven't decided yet. Anyway...I'm really liking this fic so far. It's fun writing Ren, especially because he didn't make that much of an appearance in Extras (which was muy sad). Hopefully things'll keep going on it and I'll have it finished soon...

Anyway...other than that, there's not much going on. Today's been a rather blah day...full of tons of doing nothing...^^'...School tomorrow and then I get to start writing my 5-6 page research paper. WHEE!! At least it's a good topic...

Loves!
Nichole

We Did It

Last night as I sat and watched McCain deliver his concession speech and Obama give his acceptance speech, I took a moment to just sit back and think, "We did it." For the first time in eight years, our country came together and made the right choice. That filled me with such a sense of pride. I have never been so proud to be an American before in my entire life, and knowing that I was one of those people who helped to make a difference just makes it all the more satisfying...

Sure, there are people out there who are pissed and angry because McCain lost, but they'll get over it. Just like the Democrats who were pissed when Bush won a second term back in 2004, the Republicans who supported McCain will come to the realization that they can't sit back and be angry that McCain didn't make it as president. They'll realize that they need to do all they can to support Obama in his mission to revive this country, to bring back the splendor we once had and prove to the world that we are united and we are strong. It's time to stop being the laughing stock of the world...

Today, I walk with my head held high and a smile on my face, knowing that we made the right choice. It doesn't matter that Obama is an African American. It wouldn't matter if he were a Muslim either, as all those Republicans out there assumed him to be. He is a human being. And even if he were a Muslim, he still believes in a benevolent power that does nothing but love and care for its believers. And last night, our country proved that they know that. There are still racists out there, still people who are driven by nothing but prejudice, but the greater part of the American population came forward and proved that they are better people than that. Color doesn't matter. Religion doesn't matter. All that matters is the person and the drive that person carries with them to make this country a better place for us today and the generations to come...

Together we are strong. And together we will work to make this country a better place. Last night, we showed the world that we are strong and we will continue to persevere and prove that we are better than the image of our country that has been projected over the past eight years...

The change has come, and on January 20, 2009 it will begin.

On Different Things...

Soooo...something important is happening today, and it's actually got me pretty nervous. I've never voted before and I dunno what to do. I know that it's easy (or at least everyone says that it is), but I'm still worried. What if I mess up and make the wrong vote or what if I don't leave early enough or something...*sighs*...Or maybe I'm just worrying too much, like usual. Heheh. Who knows? But hopefully it'll go over smoothly. I should have dragged my ass outta bed and gone to vote with Dad this morning...then I wouldn't be worrying about these things right now...

Blargh...on other things...

Okay...so Twilight...yeah...Twilight. Everyone close to me knows my stance on this movie. I read Twilight when I was senior in high school and have read every book, aside from Breaking Dawn, since then. When I found out the movie was coming out and the books were made mainstream, it irked me. I love this series, and now all these people who never would have thought to pick it up are reading it now. It's sooo damned aggrivating, but I guess it's also nice that people out there are interested in reading. So yeah, there's the silver lining-ish piece of it, I guess...

But anyway...for the longest time I've had a stance against the movie, as well. "I'll probably see it, but only so I can bitch about it," was how I rolled. But now, every time I see the trailer on TV, it get more and more excited about it...*bashes head against wall*...I mean, really? Really world? Oh, well. But I really am excited about it. I just need to find someone who will go see the movie with me. I'm sure my mom will if no one else wants to. I'm still aggrivated at who they got to play Mr. Edward, though. The dude who played Cedric Diggory in HP and the Goblet of Fire? He's not nearly pretty enough!! I want to stab who ever made that casting call. But I'm sure he'll do a good job, even if he doesn't have the same godlike beauty as Edward has...

Now onto writing...

Muses have returned for Pulse/Even in Death...*crowd cheers*...YAY!!!...Heheh...at least somewhat. I wrote a bit for it in my English and philosophy classes yesterday for the first time in a while. I'm working on a one-shot fic thing inspired by the song "I Don't Care" by Fall Out Boy. I'm also working ..ing up "Clumsy," which was inspired by the Fergie song, of course. I'm also getting many other ideas for different things...

I'm really aggrivated that nothing's really coming for "Understanding." It's not that I don't know what I want to happen. I mean, I have that whole damned fic planned out until the very end of "Angel's Punishment." I just dunno what the problem is. Maybe I should just pick a time to open up the file and just write, even if it's complete and utter crap. I'll be able to come back and edit it later, anyway. I just need to take some time to write something for it. I feel so bad whenever I get a review or see that someone's added the story to their faves or alert list when I know I haven't updated in forever. I really just wanna send the people an e-mail and be like, "DID YOU EVEN CHECK WHEN THE LAST TIME I UPDATED WAS?!?!?!?!?" I just don't want them to wait forever, which will probably be the case if they really want to read more when it comes to that particular fic...*sighs*...

Anyway...there's more I would love to rant about but my stomach is shouting at me to feed it. Maybe more will come later...*shrugs*...

GET OUT THERE AND VOTE TODAY!!!!!!!

Loves!
Nichole ♥