Inspirational Serial Killers?

Heheh. Believe it or not, yes. Well, actually it's more like fictional serial killers. Kacie has me addicted to Dexter. Not only is it an amazing show (and it helps that Michael C. Hall is just about yummy!!!), but it's really kicked started my muses and inspiration...

The first night we watched it, I had ideas running through my mind the entire drive home. And then I couldn't just go to bed because I know how my mind words (I tend to forget things I think about just before bed), so I pulled out my rusty trusty notebook, grabbed my amazing kleptoed pen and started to scribble down ideas and stuff. I would have done the same last night, but I was ready to pass out before I left Kacie's house. All of my attention was focused on the road and the fact that I couldn't fall asleep until I was curled up safely in my bed...^^'...

Unfortunately, the muses haven't kicked in for anything already in progress, but they've made me start writing something completely new...:sighs:...I dunno if it'll actually go anywhere, but it's nice to be working on something. I guess. Heheh...

Anyway, just a random update because I can...and I'm bored and seriously needed some quick entertainment...Heheh...

Loves!
Nichole

So I'm a Dreamy Idealist, Hm?

Dreamy Idealist (DI)
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Dreamy Idealists are very cautious and therefore often appear shy and reserved to others. They share their rich emotional life and their passionate convictions with very few people. But one would be very much mistaken to judge them to be cool and reserved. They have a pronounced inner system of values and clear, honourable principles for which they are willing to sacrifice a great deal. Joan of Arc or Sir Galahad would have been good examples of this personality type. Dreamy Idealists are always at great pains to improve the world. They can be very considerate towards others and do a lot to support them and stand up for them. They are interested in their fellow beings, attentive and generous towards them. Once their enthusiasm for an issue or person is aroused, they can become tireless fighters.

For Dreamy Idealists, practical things are not really so important. They only busy themselves with mundane everyday demands when absolutely necessary. They tend to live according to the motto “the genius controls the chaos” - which is normally the case so that they often have a very successful academic career. They are less interested in details; they prefer to look at something as a whole. This means that they still have a good overview even when things start to become hectic. However, as a result, it can occasionally happen that Dreamy Idealists overlook something important. As they are very peace-loving, they tend not to openly show their dissatisfaction or annoyance but to bottle it up. Assertiveness is not one of their strong points; they hate conflicts and competition. Dreamy Idealists prefer to motivate others with their amicable and enthusiastic nature. Whoever has them as superior will never have to complain about not being given enough praise.

As at work, Dreamy Idealists are helpful and loyal friends and partners, persons of integrity. Obligations are absolutely sacred to them. The feelings of others are important to them and they love making other people happy. They are satisfied with just a small circle of friends; their need for social contact is not very marked as they also need a lot of time to themselves. Superfluous small talk is not their thing. If one wishes to be friends with them or have a relationship with them, one would have to share their world of thought and be willing to participate in profound discussions. If you manage that you will be rewarded with an exceptionally intensive, rich partnership. Due to their high demands on themselves and others, this personality type tends however to sometimes overload the relationship with romantic and idealistic ideas to such an extent that the partner feels overtaxed or inferior. Dreamy Idealists do not fall in love head over heels but when they do fall in love they want this to be a great, eternal love.

Adjectives which describe your type
introverted, theoretical, emotional, spontaneous, idealistic, dreamy, effusive, pleasant, reserved, friendly, passionate, loyal, perfectionist, helpful, creative, composed, curious, obstinate, with integrity, willing to make sacrifices, romantic, cautious, shy, peace-loving, vulnerable, sensitive, communicative, imaginative

These subjects could interest you
literature, philosophy, psychology, music, art (museums), writing, drawing/painting, astrology, spiritual things, meditation, handicrafts, writing, voluntary work



I guess I have to admit that it sounds about right...^^'...

I've Never Read Something More True to Myself...

"In idle moments, I still slide my fingers under the sleeves of my shirt and trace the raised white nubs of scars that track my arms from years and years of cutting. How did I learn to stop cutting and collapsing, and can I somehow transmit this ability to others?"

When I first found and read that anonymous quote yesterday, I almost started to cry. I have never read something that is more true to myself and what I aim to do in the future. There are many times when I'm bored or nervous that I find myself running my fingers over the raised scars that decorate the flesh of my left forearm from five years of self-injury. I thank the gods everyday that I'm able to go without hurting myself, and can't help but wonder what I can do to help others who suffer with the same problem. How can I get my voice out there? How can I reach out and wrap my arms around those people who are hurting? How can I let them know that they are not alone?...

I've already started my journey in the smallest way possible. My writing is my voice. Through two seperate fan fictions I have been able to spread the word about self-injury, to teach those who had never heard of it or thought that it was something only "crazy people did" that it is a real problem. Through my writing I have been able to teach acceptance and tolerance. One day I hope that I'll be able to teach those things to a wider range of an audience...

I idolize the creators of To Write Love on Her Arms, a non-profit organization that is focus on suicide, self-injury, and abuse awareness. I admire them for their perseverance for for being able to get out there and do something that I can only dream of doing. One day, I hope to maybe join forces with them. If they're still accepting applications when summer comes around, I'm thinking of applying to intern with them. That would be such an amazing experience and I would love to be surrounded by such magnificent people...

To me, it doesn't matter that the organization is based in the Christian faith. They are so open and willing to accept everyone. I'm sure that they would be willing to accept a Pagan into their diverse mix as well...

It still astounds me that, according to TWLOHA's website, an estimated 4% of the world's population has self-injured at some point in their life. This number was only 1% two years ago. 3% in two years? Really? That's amazing and only makes my drive even stronger. One day, I will be able to help people who suffer like I have and sometimes still do. I refuse to let anything get in my way of doing that...

Love,
Nichole

Book Cover Concept

I made my first cover for Pulse today, guys!!! :dances: It was really fun. I know that it's not the prettiest thing in the world, but you have to remember that I'm just an amateur at all this stuff...^^'...Even so, I really like it. It gives me a bit of hope, even though I made it myself...Heheh...

You can see it here: Conceptual Cover for Pulse

Tell me what you all think. Pleeease??

Loves!
Kolie

New Found Obsession

I am in freakin' love with photo manipulations!!!!!! :dies: I've always wanted to do them, but thought they would be too difficult. Well damn...was I wrong. LoL. My favorite right now is eye manipulations. I'm doing a series of eye manips that are inspired by fruits. It all started with me playing around with one photo and realizing it was kind of watermelon-ish when I was done. It wasn't on purpose or anything. And now it's spawned this great huge thing, and it's so much fun!!! Heheh. So far I've ten manips for the Fruit series. They are: Watermelon, Citrus Zest, Apple Rind, Kiwi, Strawberry Banana, Raspberry, Seedless Grape, Blueberry Gum, Cherry Blossom, and Pineapple Dreams. All of these but Watermelon were done today. They're so easy and fast!! I would do more tonight, but I've kind of run out of ideas for fruits for the day and I need to write up a speech that I have to give tomorrow...

Anyway...if you want to check out some of my eye manipulations, visit my deviantart account at http://xcrimson-tearsx.deviantart.com. All of the eye manipulations are there, and more!!!...

Loves!!
Nichole

Ima Cowboy

Heheh. I love this picture and just had to share. My Bichon Frise, Peanut, looking like he's smiling at my brother (who had just walked into the room). Gosh darnit, he's so damned cute!!...^^'...

Loves!

Work

This is just an update on things, so yeah^^'...

I finished, edited and posted "Clumsy" sometime last week. Isn't it sad that I can't remember when? Yeah...I thought so too. Anyway, it's a Kingdom Hearts, Akuroku fic inspired by the song of the same title by Fergie. Not many reviews or stuff yet, but I'm not surprised. I mean, I did kinda vanish there for about six months or so...:sighs:...

Work has started once again on the next chapter for "Understanding." Yayay!! Heheh. Yeah, it's been quite a while since I've really sat down to work on that certain fic. It's nice that my muses have returned. Let's all just hope and pray that they don't decided to take another extended vacation anytime soon...That would really suck...

I've started another one-shot inspired by "Soushin no Koe" by MUCC. Ohmigawd! This song is freakin' amazing! LoL. So dark and sexy and Tatsuro's voice just makes me want to melt into a happy little pile of goo...^^'...Yeah...it's that good. Anyway...I haven't decided what the pairing is going to be yet, or even if it's going to be turned into a fan fiction. Right now it's lingering in an original state and I'm kinda liking it that way. Who knows, though? Maybe I'll get the itch to turn it into a fic someday. I dunno...

I've started working on "Yours to Hold" once again as well. It's a fic from the Uglies series by Scott Westerfeld...:obsesses:...with a Hiro/Ren pairing. It's also inspired by the song of the same title by Skillet, though I may end up changing the title when I get it done. I haven't decided yet. Anyway...I'm really liking this fic so far. It's fun writing Ren, especially because he didn't make that much of an appearance in Extras (which was muy sad). Hopefully things'll keep going on it and I'll have it finished soon...

Anyway...other than that, there's not much going on. Today's been a rather blah day...full of tons of doing nothing...^^'...School tomorrow and then I get to start writing my 5-6 page research paper. WHEE!! At least it's a good topic...

Loves!
Nichole